Truly Live

Do you know what its like to be truly happy when you wake up the next morning because you were given another day to make a difference, to live a little longer? So many people really don't see how precious a gift they have. I know I didn't look at life the same way as I do now. I went through a lot the last 6 years. I was told I would never walk right again, never be able to run again, never bend my head back to look at the stars again, never touch my chin to my chest again, and never be able to turn my head side to side because of the damage in my neck and back even after surgery on my neck and all the physical therapy. I walk and run just fine (out of shape yes but I can do it), look side to side, look at the stars, and touch my chin to my chest. I was told after 2 shoulder surgeries I would never lift my left arm any higher than my shoulder. I can like nothing is wrong. I had cancer and beat it. I had kids after they told me I couldn't carry ba
bies anymore. My left carotid artery closed off leaving me with 10% blood flow to my left side and didn't have a major stroke or die. I had brain surgery and lived to tell about it. Lived two more years with 40% or less blood flow never knowing and still to this day I have not had a major stroke. Doctors say its a miracle. I know it is. But I also know I am playing with fire not having another surgery. I don't know when I will die. No one does. I just want the chance to believe and have faith that i will live a longer life. I want to be married to my husband for many years. I want to watch my children grow up. I want to achieve more hopes and dreams I put off for so long.

I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me. I have a wonderful family who loves me and I love the life I have. I want this surgery not so much for me but my kids. I don't want them growing up without their mommy. Can you imagine having to do that? My kids are the most important people to me. They have been through so much with me and no matter how strong they may act the pain and fear is in their eyes everyday.
Just take a minute to cherish your life and the time you've been given. Never take it for granted.